Behind the Scene #4, When you feel it, it is yours

Welcome back friends!

How are you doing?

Wow, what a time. I mean, there's lot going on in our world. Some people, including myself can feel it. Others don't. Differentiation is one of the greatest tool I am currently practicing. Regardless of where those around me are, I keep coming back to myself to be me, instead of other's mood, position or tendency. In the Show, from the kingdom she cam from, It was challenging for Sarah to get there because she learnt to please other first, especially Abraham, so she could feel loved. Deconstructing this mechanism was the perfect opportunity to love herself unconditionally, regardless of other's tribe members business. The benefits? She got to experience true love, genuine / high quality relationships, and what she longed for inside coming together outside. There were days far to be perfect, and days were she was hopeful, grateful and blissful for what she has. When she was not, she only seen what was missing in her life. This attitude my friends, leads to misery

In Sarah and Abraham's Show, Abraham emphasizes Sarah's sabotaging attitude. Being Abraham's wife and a teacher, Sarah is also the "counsellor" of her tribe. Self realization was a unique status for a woman at this point. However, most of her life, Sarah was focused on the only thing she was not receiving yet; the absence of a child. The story out of it makes Sarah feels punished, abandoned or not heard by life itself. This is such a lonely place to be...craving for something that seems unattainable. Is this something familiar to you friends? To be given a life different than most people around you has? To crave for something you don't have and not knowing how to get it? Is there any area of your life where your longing has not been met yet? I do! And I think we all have some places in our lives that could be fed. At least, it is what we think. The human nature just never stops to wanting new things. In having been riding the waves off it, Sarah noticed that more she gets herself what she wants, more she closes the gap with the absence. When she feels fulfilled inside by giving it to herself, the absence disappears. Instead of waiting for Abraham to save her or to make her dream come true, She learnt to do it herself. In these moments, she understands that absence does not exist. It is her attitude that creates the absence. But the absence is still absent you might say? You are right. The absence is still absents, yet only physically. In these moments of feeling full within , she also can see clearly that the timing of when things comes into the physicality, is perfect. It is like a designed life events unfolding. Only a highest intelligence can creates such a thing. So are we! In fact, when we feel in our heart the "absent thing" we want , without judgment but just feeling them, it is ours. It comes to us effortlessly. Some will call it magic or miracle. I say this is a very low percentage of our capacity to create - that we are not aware of

We create from the inside to the outside. I wished that collective consciousness could remind itself of that, on a constant basis. On the other hand, the contrast caused by this oblivion is necessary to deepen our desires or create new ones. How did Sarah got pregnant at 89 years old? What was this miracle truly about? How did she finally closed the gap between herself and her absence?

Disappointments friends! Over and over again waiting, hoping it might comes, that feeling that it is around the corner...and nothing at the end. This masochistic story repeating itself like a vicious spiral which proved Sarah how not good enough and unworthy she was, is real for some of us. The gift of accumulated disappointments lies in the exhaustion of the absence absents. At this point, someone has to be so broken emotionally that it is brought back to presence and surrender. In this process, Sarah made room for her self realization and to whatever would come, in each moment; Full of her own light, breathing the now, being here for her community. Indeed, she was in her life purpose by spiritually mothering her community. Not out of compensation but from scratch. She wanted to be a mother so she gave it to herself by embodying it for others.There was no longer something wrong with her. She gave it to herself. The voice of judgment and ego stopped to let her essence emerged. In receiving her essence fully, she conceived energetically as much as she was feeling high from life

Today, with the help of quantum physic, this is how I am choosing to express Sarah's miracle. What a beautiful teaching for all of us. That is what I call FAITH my friends.

Isn't it more authentic and human to talk about "ambivalent faith" instead of "we absolutely need to have faith otherwise we won't get or receive what we long for". Faith is a process. It has to, in order to be real, raw, wounded, ecstatic, mature... Ambivalence is the path of solidity I say. Because it fully accepts our humanity. Only integrated, we can rise above our nature and leap to higher mountains

I hope you are loving your humanity in his integrity, in all that you are. I hope next time you are judging yourself, you can catch it and take that opportunity to love your so called flaws even more. This is how you close the gap my friends. Feeling your heart. Feeling the safety acquisition of your absence absents. Not by bypassing your tears, but with the acceptance of how beautiful they are. For loving your tears brings you closer to your absence presents. And right here, If you can feel it, it is yours

Aww... when defense dissolves

With love,

Sarah

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